Welcome to the start of my 6th month of tracking my return to the general goodness of moving more and eating less.
This month, I decided to go with a split screen on the layout. Why? Having only lost 4 pounds in the past month, I needed a quick visual reminder of just how far I've come.
As much as I like to say, "It's not just about weight loss," I do get an extra boost from the number when it leans on the generous side. The past month, however, was all about adjusting both expectations and workouts. I had some foot pain and so I chose other things to do in order to get in the exercise I needed. (You can read more about what I do and what I eat here.)
A few weeks ago, the author of Women, Food and God was on Oprah. She and Oprah were talking about when Oprah did the infamous cover showing her thin self, and her heavier self (one that I so aptly parodied here), and O was saying (yes, I just call her "O" now) that what she didn't realize was that she was publicly shaming herself by doing this. She was putting her self-loathing on display for the entire world to see.
I thought about what she said, and asked myself: "Oh my God…is that what I am doing? Putting my self-loathing on display for my blog readers to see?"
Now Oprah initially thought she was just connecting; showing people her humanity; her real-ness. I believe that's how I took that cover. Look, Oprah is just like me!
I never set out to humiliate myself in this process. I set out to hold myself accountable. Period. Any issues I have with self-esteem come from far more deeply ingrained issues than simply a bit of extra junk in my trunk.
At least that's what my therapist tells me.
JOIN IN: If you'd like to document your path to better health, you don't have to do it with a photo of yourself. Take a picture of your workout clothes, or the trail you walk on, or the bike you ride. The words and feelings you record in this process, however, can be very illuminating on your journey to better health. I'm using this template to record my journey (you can also choose this one.)
I've also formed a Flickr group to share your pages and your progress. It is small, but mighty.
Here's to your health.