I started running in January 2010, though when I started I'm not sure you would really call it running. More like falling forward and making my feet move ahead to prevent me falling face first onto the treadmill.
Over time, it got better.
I've had such good luck with running thus far. Maybe that's the bonus of being an adult-onset athlete—I don't have years of pounding my body that's catching up with me in my 40s.
But about a week ago, something went funny during a run, and even after taking a full 5 days off, it's still funny. Something in my calf.
Dr. Google is leading me to believe I may have some small muscle tear, though you know how crazy Dr. G. can be. Because it could also be Deep Vein Thrombosis, or an Achilles Tendon issue, or quite possibly my entire leg might have to go.
The reality is, I can't run. At all. The minute I take one stride on my right leg, my calf starts the protest and seems to be saying, "Hey stupid, stop pushing me here."
I've got to tell you, over the weekend, I let the blueness wash over me. If I don't run, then my whole fitness programs falls apart! If I don't run, I'll be back into larger sizes by the weekend! If I don't run, how will people know I'm serious?
Then I decided to stop playing my neurotic card, and look at reality: I've got to do something else and let this heal, whatever this is.
So it's back to the pool a little more often.
Yes, it takes more time from my day (driving there, get in, swim an hour, shower, drive home). But it's a solid form of low-impact exercise that I can do, and generally enjoy. Sure, I will smell like chlorine more by hitting it three times a week, but hey, at least it's a clean smell.
And then there's the bike.
We've been having freakishly warm March weather. We broke all weather records last week and this means that bike season has come early. I'm planning to get out this morning to see how the calf feels on a bike ride.
I know people face challenges to their fitness goals all the time. I know a lot of my students in Move More Eat Well class post about this very subject with frequency. How to make it work. How to work around the problems.
What about you? Be it fitness, or work, or life… when all of sudden you have to change course, how to do motivate yourself to do just that?
Me? I just keep reminding myself not to throw the baby out with the pool water, so to speak.