Remember this before and after shot?
Ahhh. I do. I mean, I should considering I posted these lovely shots in front of my toilet for two years.
Watching yourself go down in size month after month for a year is inspiring and motivating.
I was on a roll, and not the kind that hangs over the edge of my jeans.
Okay, maybe there's still some roll. Definitely more roll today than in that upper right after shot.
This month, I've been plagued with tweaks and aches. First my calf. Then my back. Then my attitude. And you may not know this, but the latter is the worst one to go. Truly. Because when the attitude is in the crapper, Cheez-Its and Sprite don't seem so taboo afterall.
I'm just going to say it: taking care of yourself is hard.
The other day I was leaving the mall, walking past the food court, and I called Dan and said, "You know what I wish? That I still had a metabolism that let me eat at Manchu Wok or Sbarro," to which he replied, "Um honey, no you don't. That food sucks."
I'm sure once I can get back to heading out for runs I'll be in a better mental space. I swear to you, the particular sweat that comes during a 3- or 4-miler is just about the most cleansing thing I know how to do.
I took a walk the other day and it just didn't quite give me the same boost. That's reality for me.
I feel very whiney. Not at all like a fearless leader of the Move More, Eat Well workshop. But maybe that's exactly what my students need right now, to know that this is hard for me, and that I'm struggling with this process too. That sometimes, I feel like, well, whining.
I have found no magic pill for this. I keep surprising myself with the reality of realizing: Ohhhh… you mean I have to WORK for this?
And so, I carry on.
I'm sure my groove will come back around. In fact, I'd bet on it.
Sometimes, it just feels good to let my inner Debbie Downer out for a bit to play.
Just not for too long, you know?
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