I want to get that on the table because it’s rare that I come across a quote that speaks to me let alone one that I plan to share with others. And when you first read this quote and you get to the part that says “whatever you want to do, do it now,” I need to go on record as saying we cannot always realistically drop everything and do whatever we want at any given time.
If your dream has always been to be a ballerina but you’re presently pushing 50, have bad feet and are 45 pounds overweight, that ship might have already sailed.
Life does have some rules if you decide that responsibility is something you’d like to embrace along the way.
But there is an urgency to the quote that hit me right in the feels.
Let me tell you a valuable lesson I have learned (and continue to learn) from therapy: I do not have unlimited time on Earth.
You know this. I know this. I am not a member of the Cullen family. It’s a fact.
But in my life, I have lived in ways that would suggest I believe to the contrary because I’ve done a whole lot of unconscious living.
The idea that your time is limited can be a great motivator for change, for growth, and for life.
Did I ever tell you about the time my therapist asked me to tell her what my last day on Earth looked like? That I woke up one day and was told I had 12 hours left to live? She really did ask me this and at first, I just spit out some half-assed answers that basically said nothing about me or what mattered in my life.
So she had me slow down and describe hour by hour what my day looked like.
What surprised me the most was all the things that day did NOT include. No iPhone. No Facebook. No TV. No trips to Costco. No pissing and moaning about the asshole who just cut me off in traffic. No jealousy. No hate. No manipulation. No anger. No self promotion.
Those last 12 hours contained exactly zero amounts of bullshit.
Instead, I spent all 12 of those hours with the people I love most in this world: Dan, Aidan and Cole. We took walks together. We talked with each other. For lunch we had mashed potatoes and gravy, french fries and potato chips because if it’s my last day, you’d better damned well believe I’m loading up on potato-related foods.
My last 12 hours on Earth were simply about communing with them, these people who are really the core of my existence. And when it was time for me to check out, we were all on my bed, each one had a hand on me and off I went into the great unknown.
I want my life to be conscious. I want to make choices that matter.
I don’t want to be driven by fear and ideas. That quote up above speaks to me and so I’m sharing it today.
Life is so short. It brings with it exactly zero guarantees. We’re not just in short supply of endless tomorrows; we’re not even guaranteed our next breath. But life… it’s just such an amazing and cool thing, isn’t it?
To live with a conscious purpose and to stop wasting valuable time. I know it’s hard to keep this as the focus, but man, I want to make more of an effort. I’m not trying to be all heavy on a Friday. It’s just what’s on my mind.
Thanks for reading.
Note: I found the above quote on my friend’s Facebook page. Then I went looking for the full original quote because it was initially incorrect and I can’t find the full quote anywhere. Hell, it might not even be Tony Robbins. But it still resonates with me all the same.