Of course, I don’t eat them together, but when I decide to embrace my inner abstainer, I actually don’t completely fall apart. There’s another thing happening this time that is a bit eye opening: things that hurt don’t hurt as much.
Case in point: my wrists and hands hurt from the type of work that I do. Sitting and typing and pointing and clicking all day will take its toll on a body after 25 years. But in the past fews months, especially during the Great Reeses Pumpkin Binge of two weeks ago, the hurt was a lot more noticeable and was starting to bum me out. After six days of eating real food, the pain is greatly reduced. Now that is something I can actually observe as an immediate benefit. So there’s that.
Also, just talking about this again is freeing to me. I have some serious addictive tendencies. It used to be nicotine. Now it’s sugar. They’re really not so different. Both have equal opportunities to create tremendous damage in the body. I know that my attitude is pretty much the most important factor in taking better care of myself. So right now, it’s where it needs to be.
Attitude is something I need to constantly work on in every area of my life. For example, when you have a shit load of work to do, you can say, “I have NO idea how this is all going to get done,” or you can say, “I love that I know how to make this all happen.” When I am feeling annoyed with my husband I can say, “Dude is driving me crazy right now,” or I can say, “What’s actually going on with me and causing me pain or hurt that I would want to project negative shit onto Dan?”
See how that works?
When I’m responsible I feel strangely fine.
And when I am feeling strangely fine, I can relax and figure out what life is presently requiring of me.
And that doesn’t suck.