- I don’t really have big giant walls to take awesome self-portraits without some shit getting in the way.
- I’m a sucker for alliteration.
- Every time I take a shower my ears turn bright red for roughly 20 minutes.
- I have the tendency to share details about myself that aren’t really essential.
All that said, you may or may not know that I’m teaching a year-long class called Fit, and this year, each month, I’m going to blog about my personal story with the whole trying to take better care of me thing.
First, a little backstory: last October I decided to give this self-care thing another go. At the time, the thought of teaching a year-long class wasn’t on the radar, mostly because I didn’t want to be accountable if another round of failure was in the cards. In other words, I was basically giving myself permission to make a half-assed effort and if it didn’t feel good, no harm, no foul.
That’s not really the kind of person I aspire to be. Like, at all.
So I had a little come to nutritional Jesus meeting with myself and I asked, “Do you know what you actually need and are you willing to do those very things?”
The answer was a firm and committed, “Yes.”
I just didn’t share it with anyone until I was sure I could follow through.
In short, four months ago I started to be responsible and take care of myself in a way that was actually needed. It meant less wine and crackers and more walks and protein. It meant less Reeses Peanut Butter cups and more water. (Okay, it actually meant NO RPBs, because they are literally my kryptonite, and the key to all manner of unhealthy binges.)
Am I still sure I can follow through? Today, I will say yes, but honestly, I know that if my attitude changes then anything is possible, even if those possibilities don’t look as good as I would like them to look.
I’m human and I’m working this process. To date, I’ve dropped 20 pounds. The first five was simply from not eating Goldfish crackers and drinking wine every night. #winning
The rest has come from eating real food (no diet stuff!), exercising in a reasonable manner (think lots of treadmill walks with Jane the Virgin), and here’s the real kicker: I’ve been mostly abstaining from junk food. I know, shocker how that will translate into results.
I feel so much less achy from ingesting less sugar and in general I’m moving better and thinking more clearly about this process.
In our Fit classroom welcome message, I talk about the idea of being an abstainer or a moderator. I’m proud to say I’m an abstainer. I take better care of myself when I don’t dabble in the stuff that triggers all of my cravings for junk food. Some people can dabble and they’re fine. One little piece of chocolate and they’re on their way. No problem.
That isn’t me. It never has been. I wouldn’t have smoked for 25 years as a moderator.
So this time, I’m stacking some odds in my favor.
- I’m eating balanced meals and snacks every day. Lots of protein, healthy fats (yes, there are healthy fats), and real carbs in the form of veggies and fruits.
- I’m getting exercise every day. Mostly, I’m just making 10,000 steps my b#tch on a daily basis.
- I’m taking responsibility for this shit because this is just about choices. That’s it. If I make different choices, I have different results. That’s not good or bad. It’s just reality.
I’m trying to stay in reality as often as I can. It seems like a pretty decent place to hang.
I feel like 20 pounds is fabulous and I think I look great. It doesn’t matter to me that the BMI charts and weight charts still say I should drop more. I’d like to actually maintain this and see how it feels.
I’m working to be less about numbers every day.
Register today for Fit 2016. Think of February as the start of another new year! I have almost 800 students committed to working on better choices and staying connected to what is needed in their respective realities. There is no one plan that’s perfect for everyone. This class isn’t about giving you a plan; rather, it’s about giving you support and motivation to find and implement what works for you. Part of the process is documentation and yes, you’ll build your own tracking journal throughout the year. We also have a really supportive Facebook community for students only. People are sharing their stories, supporting each other and yes, maybe venting here and there because honestly? This stuff is not easy.
That said, it is manageable and if you decide that February is your month, I’d love to support you with your personal health and fitness goals.
It’s not about perfection. It’s about better.
Fit registration will remain open until July 31, 2016.