Not only to my students, but mostly to myself. In fact, it was really all about me.
Hell, it’s ALWAYS really all about me.
I was tired of caring about how I looked and what I ate and if I moved and if I didn’t. I was also tired of trying to market and profit from my issues.
So I more or less stopped caring and did whatever felt good to me in the moment.
Think lots of wine and Goldfish crackers and lounging around. For months.
Since 2010, I’ve been working on becoming a more responsible human being. A better parent. A better wife. A better friend. It’s not that I’m some fundamentally flawed person. I’m not. I’m just a normal one. A normal person with a lot of ideas about things that aren’t really based in fact but rather, they are based on feelings.
I know, you might be thinking, “But what’s wrong with feelings? My feelings are important!” And I get that. I do. I mean, I should because I’ve lived my entire life based on two things: how do I feel and what am I getting.
When feeling good is a priority, you’ll do just about anything to protect it. It might mean feeling superior to others so you can feel good about yourself. It might mean getting angry about things so that whatever the real pain is doesn’t touch you. Or it might be eating two bags of Reeses Pumpkins because every single bite is like a little hug.
I’m not speaking rhetorically here. I’m speaking from my experience. This is my truth.
So last October, when it really was getting tricky to bend over and tie my shoes, I looked at the choices I was making and decided to make different ones.
The new choices wouldn’t be about extremes, or fad diets, or crazy workouts. They would be about discovering what my body needed from a nutritional and exercise standpoint taking into account many factors: my age, my ambition and my abilities. I decided that eating shit wasn’t good for me and not just because I wanted to look a little nicer in my jeans. Eating shit was actually harmful to this body that I’m truly grateful to have.
I realized I wasn’t behaving like the responsible adult I’m working to become. I realized I didn’t want the health problems that could result from increasingly gaining weight. I realized that I could do better.
Yep, not perfect. Just better.
So that’s what I did. I started to make better choices. I ate out less. I cooked tasty meals at home. I started walking again. I remembered that eating well had so many benefits other than seeing a number dip on the scale.
And then during the first week of December I thought, “I think I’m going to do a year-long class to stay accountable,” and I ain’t gonna lie: I talked myself out of it three or four times until, oh right around the middle of the month when I said, “You need to fish or cut bait, lady.”
So I decided to fish. And I fished like a mother effin’ mad woman to pull this thing off in time for January 1. And if I’m being honest, I think the results are pretty good.
I am not an expert on this stuff, but I am looking forward to helping you find motivation with whatever being healthier is for you. I am not seeking to have a crazy before and after photo. Been there, done that. I am looking for a lifestyle shift.
That is what Fit is all about. Yes, you get a crap ton of printables to help you tell your story but at the core it’s just you being accountable and realistic. I come in every month and give you a pep talk and no, I am not going to play it safe. My message needs to reflect what I think is real and needed. That’s my responsibility to my students and to myself.
I just wanted to tell you where it was coming from. I’ll be promoting this class all year long, too. Each month I’ll check in, just like the old days, here on my blog about how this process is going for me. You can join me in Fit anytime you like. Registration will remain open through August*.
So, that’s my story for the day. Thanks for listening.
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*Join Fit for the promotional price of just $26 through January 15th. After that, the price increases to $31.