I’m having a dry spell of creativity.
Last weekend, I spent a lovely weekend around amazing, creative women at a retreat in the glorious state of Ohio. While I created precisely nothing at this retreat, it was cool to look over the shoulders of artists and makers and all-around good human beings, as they did a bit of this and a bit of that. I knew before I left I probably wouldn’t make anything. It wasn’t a self-fulfilling prophecy. I just don’t craft on the go. I’m a make-it-in-your-dining-room kind of girl.
This morning, after a horrible night of dreams that included singularly awful haircuts and tardiness, I sat down to plan out my day and realized that I got nothing. Nothing.
For me, nothing means is I feel like I’m floating and ungrounded.
Self-employment is nothing if not being anchored to a daily purpose. A purpose to make a living and get as much done as possible to that end. Floating above your planner? Staring at your computer screen and not knowing what the next step needs to be at 7 a.m.? Not so great in terms of making things happen.
This has always been cycle for me, and thankfully, not a particularly frequent one. Normally, I chug along and even on the days when I feel less creative, I can still find things I need to work on for the most part.
But today just feels like mama needs to really buckle down and find that purpose because it’s Thursday. And many things should have happened by Thursday that have not yet happened.
• recording and editing three new card videos for really adorable cards that need to have videos made.
• getting my nails painted (so my hands look more pleasing in said videos) because I’ve tried twice to do it myself and holy hell, that skill has apparently left the building.
• planning class ideas for 2018.
• designing products for Simon Says Stamp.
• designing products for Designer Digitals.
Next week I begin designing the winter issue of Scrapbook & Cards Today magazine (one of my most favorite freelance jobs ever!), and that means I’ll focus more on the magazine tasks, which are set in stone in terms of do this, then do that. I think many of you know this, but I’m a graphic designer by trade and one who got my start in print/publication design. When I’m working on stuff like that, I’m a fish in water. I feel like I’m on auto pilot, but in a very positive way. I know exactly what I’m doing. It’s my happy place because there’s no time to float. Sometimes I wish I had four more jobs just like it. There would be so much less time to float.
Yesterday, however, in an effort to check something off my list, I did this:
My YouTube channel is growing and I knew I should have some sort of welcome video for anyone who had never been to my channel before. So, I put on a ton of makeup, set up my big DSLR, connected it to my laptop so I could attempt to get myself in focus, and shot some random clips for about 10 minutes. True, I should have gotten an external mic rather than rely on the Canon 5D’s built-in camera, but it’ll suffice for now.
I guess I share a bit of this stuff because I want you to know that people in this industry of craft and making stuff don’t always fire on all cylinders all the time. Sometimes, we freak out and feel like there may not be another good idea. Like ever.
Sometimes, even after a long weekend away from work, we don’t return refreshed and ready to hit it hard.
Today, my plan is to delete files on my computer hard drive as I’m running low on space.
And to take a shower.
And to shell out $20 for a damned manicure done by a highly trained professional.
Dinner and laundry will be purely optional.
And the mojo will return.