I have committed myself to posting each month about my self-care process with all of its upsides and downsides for 2019.
If you’d like a recap from 2018, it goes this this: about half-way through, I sort of gave up. End of story.
I gave up so hard last year that I was not going to offer my Fit e-course again in 2019 because I felt like a fraud. How could I encourage people to do better when I was not truly walking the walk?
The answer came in a surprise form: high blood pressure.
Last November at a routine exam my doctor said, “Your blood pressure is a little high for you. Why don’t you follow up in a few weeks and see what it’s at, okay?”
Me: “Can do!”
I was not expecting to follow up and find it still in the Hypertension 1 range. And right there in the middle of the Cub Foods Pharmacy I decided to actually give a crap about my health, wherein the previous six months I had truly been phoning it in.
It’s not that the info I was sharing with my 2018 students wasn’t authentic. It was. I do not purport to have all of the answers on how to best care for you. If you’ve ever taken any versions of Fit, you know this about me. But personally, I was letting far too many bags of Cape Cod 40% Reduced Fat Kettle-style Potato chips into this 52-year-old belly of mine. And cheap red wine to wash it down.
Oh, but the buzz was nice.
But the overriding desire was this: I need to see if I can fix this. The blood pressure thing freaked me out and I have been working at doing better ever since. I would like to avoid medications for as long as this fabulous body will permit, but I was most definitely not doing my part to support that goal.
I am now.
For some of us, self-care is easy and automatic. I have never actually MET any of those people, but I’m sure they’re awesome and have stress-free lives and gentle puffs of unicorn dust float gently out of their butts on the daily.
It has never been automatic for me. I have a completely addictive personality so when I go all in on something that’s not so great for me (smoking, potato chips, etc), I really do go all in.
I need to go all in on caring for myself.
So right now, that’s what I’m doing. I am happy to report that I went in for a blood pressure check and six weeks after the last one, the reading is back in the normal range. I will be continuing to monitor this, of course, but I know I’m on the right track.
Nothing is going to be handed to me in my middle age. I see that more clearly than ever today and getting that high blood pressure reading was the wake up call I needed. My Fit story is not about having my ass look better in jeans. It is about living with vitality and responsibility. This is my accountability to myself.
I am not crash dieting. I am not doing extreme levels of exercise. I’m just doing what is needed for my body at this time. This means eating real food and having an 80s dance party in my living room every single day to get my heart rate up. (Who says exercise can’t be fun? You can really shake it to Wake Me Up, Before You Go-Go!)
Will I fall off the deep-end again in 2019? Not if I’m showing up and doing what is needed. So I say, let’s keep this train ‘a-chuggin’.
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